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Sunday, June 5th, 2005
3:12 am	some thoughts It is so weird. These last few months have been a whirl for me. I feel like my life is changing so much, I can't even keep up. It's hard to step away and realize how good things really are. However, there are some situations that literally force you to do this. Case in point: Several days ago I hurt my back pretty bad weightlifting. Luckily, it was nothing extremely serious. However, during these days, I realized how precious and valuable life is. Like, to think of myself being paralyzed, and to think of all the things I would miss, it just kills me inside. I'm not going to say 'I'm bored' anymore, cause I'm not. Every moment on Earth is valuable. I'm not going to get caught up in the artifical drama we create to give our lives meaning. Life isn't about anger, or frustration, or inconsequential goals, its about the act of living, the process of growing, and interaction and love. Friendship means so much more to me now. Your friends are the ones who are always there for you, the ones you can call when u failed that test or had your heart broken. Don't take advantage of your friends, don't neglect them or ignore them. Why? You will regret it, its as simple as that. Your friends are an extension of you. For example, my one friend jess knows me so well that she remembers things I said when I have no idea, and knows exactly what I'm thinking from a few lines of an IM. That's what its all about. I look back at this journal and it makes me strangely upset. Not that I regret what was said, but that I know I'll never again live so innocently and freely. Things change. Soon, I'll have to get a job in the 'real' (i use that somewhat sarcastically) world. Instead of having free time to talk about lobsters or eskimos, there will be checks to write, or deadlines to meet. Change isn't necessarily a bad thing, its just a different thing. It's hard not to look at the past and wish you could do something over or be in that very spot. However, you need to see the past as a totality of the events that ARE you, that MAKE you, and that will continue to influence your future. The past is not something to dwell on, its something to build on. Never regret. Never dwell on something that is external to you and thus out of your control. Doing so will only make you upset, and there is no reason to be upset. Never seek revenge. Be the bigger person, if for no other reason than that no one deserves to suffer, and that one less person suffering brings us closer to that goal. Never say 'I have the right'. Your actions affect others. You don't have the right to, say, stereotype anyone, because that stereotype affects every such individual in all of your interatcions with them. We are not independent creatures. We are a world community, inextricably linked through the common bond that is humanity. Always laugh Always love. Tell the people that you love that you love them, often. Do that thing you have been wanting to do. This may be your only chance. OK well, I don't know exactly what this turned into. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
12:36 am	Welcome back! welcome back welcome back, welcome back! Sup playaz.... Yo yo its about that time ya'll, Live Journal is back like when u order a medium steak and its cooked medium rare instead and u send it back! Yea, u know what I mean. Well, look forward to many dope rhymes and good times in the coming months, holla. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 28th, 2004
1:58 am	SMEY555 [1:54 AM]: there is only one race SMEY555 [1:55 AM]: the human race! Express624 [1:55 AM]: penis race SMEY555 [1:55 AM]: lollllllll Express624 [1:55 AM]: lol SMEY555 [1:56 AM]: jess, maybe forgiveness is right where u fell SMEY555 [1:56 AM]: salvation is here Express624 [1:56 AM]: itchy balls SMEY555 [1:56 AM]: lol stop Express624 [1:56 AM]: lol what SMEY555 [1:56 AM]: i put my piece of pie in the freezer and it froze Express624 [1:56 AM]: scrotum pie? SMEY555 [1:57 AM]: cum pie Express624 [1:57 AM]: no the cum is the filling Express624 [1:57 AM]: the scrotum is the crust SMEY555 [1:57 AM]: pubic hair whip cream (Comment on this)
Monday, September 13th, 2004
8:59 pm	lol i love her Xalycia1727x [8:48 PM]: well i dont know if u know, but my dad delivers water, for like water coolers. and he asked me to deliver 2 for adn old lady in durye Xalycia1727x [8:49 PM]: well when i got to her house i went to get the waters out of hte hatch, and the hatch is down, and the waters rolled out... Xalycia1727x [8:49 PM]:and the lady is like thats not good Xalycia1727x [8:50 PM]: so i had to go around looking for them Xalycia1727x [8:50 PM]: i never found them (Comment on this)
Friday, September 10th, 2004
6:18 pm	give you all i have and have no regrets hola, its 6:20 on friday and im up at school. I'm listening to 'in this life' by chantal krevieazuk, heh or somethin like that.. good song.. which is where the title of my entry comes into play.. anywayyyy I'm bored as usual. Last night sucked I wanted to go out but I couldn't b/c I was sick, it was upsetting. Tonight I hope I feel better enough to go out! hmph, I just got the hiccups,, yess<3.. But hopefully tonight will be good. Also, I would just like to let everyone know that YES I apparently do harass people!..haha.. its called a hair straightener ramen noodle head fucker.. fuck youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.. ok thats all i have to say- jessica p.s- fuck you! ..thought id add in an extra one! :D (Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
12:44 am	yes well everyone school is starting so i decided to make a dedication to all my friends. to jess- i hate you. thanks to u all i dont know what id do without u (Comment on this)
12:22 am	back to school :( HeYy, I cant seem to keep up on writing in this, ergh oh well. I moved in about 15 hours ago and everything went well. Definitely less stressful than my last 2 move ins heh,, My roommate is a girl from quakertown and we seem to get along well so far, she seems really sweet. First day of class in less then 12 hours, so scary. Different atmosphere and such should make for a better year,, So summer went by wayy too fast. Some highlights of my summer ::ahem:: my belly button piercing, my shore trip<3,, wonderful time there :), the fourth of july<3, my parents leaving me the house for the week, my bingo winnings and most of all my friends.. i <3 youssssssssss.. to show my appreciation ill make a special dedication section to my specialst ones and ones who made it memorable Jason- your one of my bestest friends and I dont know where id be without you<3! Alicia- Memorable shore trip walking down the side streets at 3 am and almost getting arrested while being picked up by some random strangers in a car haha,, your a dirtyy clam and i wouldnt have it any other way Antoine- i heart your movie reviews and our clever little talks and our trips to pee-low haha,, Jenn- thank you for making work much more tolerable haha,, i dont know what id do there w/out you<3.. harassers til the end Mike- haha mike,, what would i do without you. Everytime my mom sees the m&m cup she knows you were at the house. Marking your territory and moving souls. I heart our bingo trips and you jipping me out of my 50 bucks and dicked me over soo many times but i wouldnt have it any other way. i <3 you and your weirdness and also your 750 dollar debt,, and i also highly respect your guess who winning streak,, cant forget that! Kenny- haha oh kenneth where do i start,, it all dates back so long ago ,, 'workin on our night moves'.. heh, oh the memories..and your wonderful apartment, ill have to go more sometime.. keep in touch kid<3 Matt- good luck with your felony 'clown', syracuse wouldnt have been the same without you. You and your crazy stories kept me entertained all summer haha,, oh yes and we must have movie night more often Dan- haha well, if you learned one thing this summer it would be to never to bet with me since i always seemed to win them.. but anywho im glad we became really good friends in the past recent months thanks to our good ol friend mr santarelli heh,, always remember johnny beach and dry martinis<3,, and just think if mike keeps up his habits he'll be in more debt then you haha,, <33 thank you all<3333 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
12:01 am	womp womp heya,, so its what, august 3..well since its midnight.. the 4th now..going back to school soon :(...sOo lets see what went on latelyy,, Sunday-- had work 1-6 where I did absolutely nothing as usual, Gotch was the manager and is still bitter about me, jenn and lenas poor cleaning skills 2 fridays ago where he saw us throwing shit under seats haha,, you'll have that..hmm i cant remember what happened sunday night for some reason.. oh well, prolly nothin Mondayy- I was scheduled to work 6-11 and I thought, hmm, I dont wanna work at all at that time..so I came in at 1 and I told bell that I looked at the schedule wrong and 'accidently' came in at 1 instead of 6, he didnt care of course..oOo funny work story haah,, so before I got there this person slipped and fell outside theater 8, so murph was like Are you ok sir? and the person looked up and it was a woman! haha I would have died if i were there. Then when me and jenn were about to 'clean' theater 17, de-lovely, an old couple was dancing in there..it was sooo cute awh.. So then after work I went out with ashley and her convict friends,, haha,, and then got lost on the way home..excellent.. so then I went to cine yet again to meet Dan to see 'The Village', im not quite sure if i liked it..i didn't think it was bad it had a good plot i guess,, but it wasnt what i was expecting.. so then he came over after and gave me a cute lil candle that he got when he went to the bahamas..thank youuuuuu.. he got me a shot glass too but he forgot it, ha.. So today!.. today I wake up and realize 3 hours later that I have voicemails, so I listen to them and one is so fucked up haha i think it was chris schwartz,, i'll have to talk to him about that one..so then me and jason went to starbucks and on our journey home we encountered a long traffic line..hmph, i thought what can be going on. So after waiting for a few mins,, all these cop cars, ambulances, a red cross truck, and oddly enough a McDonalds truck blended into that drove by and we were confused and then all of a sudden a man in a chicken suit ran out of the cop car im like what the fuck is going on! haha it was so strange,, almost the same as when me and fiore went to walmart and saw a person in a yellow chicken suit walking around a few months back....hm but other then that nothing interesting went on today..okey pokey- im gunna go watch the rest of the nanny....goodnight! jessica<33 (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
4:07 pm	confessions this is my confessions (Comment on this)
3:14 pm	hii<33 hiii,, been a little while lol..ah well,,nothing exciting going on in my life anyway. Since I don't feel like explaining what went on this summer since its nothing great i'll recap this past week or so mMm,, last wed i went to see sleepover with jenn ha, it was cute I suppose.. for lack of better things to do we went home after Thursday me and jenn took a trip to my friend kenny and jay's apartment. It was a cute lil thing for two people to live in. We met a boy named Ian who gave out 'business' cards to girls,, except they contained only his cell #, house # and s/n..lol..he also pretended he had a twitch all night which was pretty funny,, everyone played along with it to trick us and kept saying he needed to take his meds.. We played truth or dare,, circle of death and just sat around and drank the rest of the night.. Friday and Saturday mm it was uneventful,, worked like I do every weekend and asked Bell for my eval haha turns out i was due for a raise last September '03,, little late ehh? haha anyway I closed on Saturday with Jenn where it actually went by fast surprisingly Sunday,, Sunday me, jenn, lena, and krystal went to the creepy fair at the wachovia arena.. There were gross carni's surrounding the place.. We went on a few rides and I of course got motion sickness. As we were leaving I got a candy apple and the carni was like is that all you want and im like yeahhh hes like what about me,, im like can i have my change..ewww gross..we left after that and went to perkins..where i threw up bc i was sooo sick lol..but then it was all good and i felt all betta Monday,, hmm I went to see Napoleon Dynamite with Mikee, which I didnt like much, and then we came to my house and did what we do best,, harass people online haha Tuesday- work blehhhhhhh I had to clean up this huge flood in the bathroom,, gross. I was also on podium and got snubbed by J.P.,,heh what can ya do?? She hasnt liked me since she lied to a certain friend of mine about myself saying things that I never did,, grrrrrr oh well,, atleast I dont have to see her Wed- Wed Me and Anthony went to see Catwoman where we sat and drank in the theater bc we knew there was no way we could sit thro it sober haha,, it was a good time.. We went to wendys after where we encountered the same kid who was there last time we went and started with us..I shall explain..So last time we went we got food whatever,, but anthony thinks its funny when i say po-taught-oh instead of po-tate-oh, got me? anyway so I ordered in my voice a baked po-taught-oh and anthony wa slaughing and this kid walks up to us and is like Somethin funny?? were like um,, no?..hes like yeah thought so..So as everyone walked in this boy continued to tell everyone how he asked us if something was funny,, real mature buddy!..So we were sittin there and he won a stuffed animal out of the machine and he walks over to me and is like Girlie, you want this?! I'm like uh, no thanks hes like OK well tell your bf not to laugh or something stupid like that and he kept saying shit the rest of the night for noo particular reason at all,, so anyway when we went wed he was there again and we ignored him and his ugly turtle hair,, heh Thursdayy- Thursday i had work. It was interesting you see,, me and my lover,, christopher schwartz, had to go outside and clip the weeds,, we thought it wouldnt be so bad except it sucked..We were on our hands and knees clipping stupid weeds out of the bottom of the wall where they were growing,, ughh it sucked..But the perk of the night is that Bell told me I could have the lifesize Vince Vaughn standee from dodgeball.. yummm<33 i love him Friday- heh ,, last night at work was sooo terrible. My poor friend jenn got stuck on podium and was so stressed out and had a terrible night and it was so busy and such and ughh so terrible. The village was selling out left and right,, Ah which brings us to now,, Sautrday.. No Work! my first one off since may 29 i think haha,, well without requesting off that is,, I dont know what to ever do with myself now that Im not working,, Im juss sittin here listening to my favoritest song ever, open arms by journey heh,, lifes peachy..welllllll i'm gunna go and enjoy my day off ..byebye...jessica lynn<33 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 26th, 2004
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Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
12:11 pm	Hey..yeah I haven't actually written in a while. So it's April 21, and the semester is winding down. Thank God<3..I've been so miserable and hostile this week. I can't stand anyone. Well, yes I can. A certain few people know what I mean. I can't wait to go home for the summer. 4 months of no school work. I don't know why I hate this place so much these days, haha yes I do. Oh well, all I can say is in about 2 weeks it'll all be over. Haha this day is just gettin better, A water bottle just spilled all over me and my bed. Lovely. Fuck this-jb Current Mood: irritated (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 17th, 2004
5:21 pm	silly boy Pork00000 [5:15 PM]: u should ahve seen us golfing yesterday Pork00000 [5:16 PM]: 4 of us smoked then golfed it was the funniest thing ever Pork00000 [5:17 PM]: we got so tired so we were just laying down on the coarse Pork00000 [5:18 PM]: we were real hungry so my friend bryan almost ate a something on the branch of a tree for 5 dollars. But when that failed we went on and found a cold beer on the coarse so we drank it Pork00000 [5:18 PM]: then we thought since the coase was so nice it should give us food Express624 [5:18 PM]: LOL Pork00000 [5:19 PM]: so hwo we got talking about hogi the bear stealing us sandwitches Express624 [5:19 PM]: hogi? haha Pork00000 [5:19 PM]: from the cartoon Express624 [5:19 PM]: its yogi u ass lol Express624 [5:20 PM]: sorry continue Pork00000 [5:20 PM]: then some how it went to ice cube dressed up in a bear costume offering us a blunt and food but only if we promised not to start forest fires (Comment on this)
4:47 am	upcoming events Monday is going to be a huge day for me. I'm doing my silly sonnet. This is a BIG deal, probably one of the defining moments for SJLAers. Here, you are aloud to do almost whatever you want, while performing your sonnet. Wit is encouraged, and humor is mandatory. I've actually just started to think about mine, which isnt good, since its due in two days and i have work both days and a biopsych test. But, anyway, I think im going to have a singing medley. Im going to walk out with corn rows, dressed up like a rapper, 'the shakespearean. Im going to rap for a bit, then suddenly stop, pretending im nervous(a play on my usual nervousness during speeches). Im going to walk to my seat and sit down. When i get up, im gonna say that all i want to do is dance, dance, dance, and the macarena is going to come on. Im going to walk around dancing for a bit and then do the macarena while standing on a table. After i finish that, im going to talk to the class a little bit about how i realized everything is about love, and how i love all of them. Im then going to say how friendship is a part of love, and then go into a little james taylor. After this little diddy, im going to end with an overblown, loud finale set to some dramatic opera tune. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 11th, 2004
3:52 am	Express624 [3:50 AM]: my eyes hurt lol SMEY555 [3:50 AM]: UR EYES! Express624 [3:50 AM]: am i not allowed to have eyes in society SMEY555 [3:51 AM]: lollllllll (Comment on this)
Friday, April 9th, 2004
1:52 am	SMEY555 [1:51 AM]: omg can u picture if a lobster walked on u while u were sleeping? Express624 [1:51 AM]: lol ew SMEY555 [1:52 AM]: or if u were taking a bath and big shrimp were in there SMEY555 [1:52 AM]: or while u were swimming in a pool a big fat alaskan crab grabbed u SMEY555 [1:52 AM]: ok u get the picture (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
12:41 am	I had a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day! (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 4th, 2004
1:25 am	ok Some people make me really angry, like cheap servers. I mean, these people make so much more than us poor bus boys anyway, but then they rub it in by giving us pathetic tip outs. It shows they are bad people overall, and bad people are not happy in life, so I guess i shouldnt feel that bad. But i mean, i guess i shouldnt really worry about that anyway, since i cant make them tip the right amount. Its external to me, and i should just take it as it is. Later, I was talking to my one co-worker and she was trying to rationalize her marijuana habit to me. This was the last thing i wanted to hear. First of all i dont care, second of all i hate when people try to rationalize addictions. Ill admit i do it myself, lots of people do. But i mean, ugh, its so annoying. Just take responsibility for your actions. Dont make excuses, dont rationalize. Tomorrow I have work as a busser again and then I have watch a movie for school, Judgment at Nuremburg. I hope its a better day then today was. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 2nd, 2004
2:15 pm	an excerpt from one of my favorite fellow syracuser's journal, ted lee: today was very interesting, i volunteered at the boys and girls club for 5 hrs today for my PAF 101 class..at the club i observed that every kid there had no future...lol one kid bit me, one kid made me bleed, two 8 year olds fought(like seriously fought, they were throwin blows to the head and everything)..and a little 10 year old got real pissed because someone broke his G-Unit medallion...basically, i am never going back there again....i then went to wendys and devoured a giant meal (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 1st, 2004
6:13 pm	hello hello! Im bored, so I figured I'd update. Yesterday blewwwww, I had class 10 and 11 and then a group project meeting at 12:30. It was supposed to be me ben matt brian and jen, but only jen showed up. stupid boys!! So, we were there til around 4:30-5ish. So then I went to eat and then layed down because I had a major headache. Ashleys friend Bob came up, but I didn't get to hang out with them because of the project. I was maddd. So anyway for this project, we have to write a 10 minute skit and act out a family going through world war II. I'm the 12 year old little sister who doesn't want her brother to go to war. Jen wrote this one scene where I have to jump on top of Matt to get him out of bed..and we have to act it out in front of the class!, thats so embarassing. I hope she changes that lol. This one girl in class keeps shooting me and jen dirty looks because we talk to matt! fuck her, she looks like kermit the frog. We usually are talking about our group project, stupid girl. Most girls and I clash. I've been fucked over by girls I've been close to and called my best friend. I'm a nice person and I try to be nice back and I get shit on ..grr.. Oh well, what can ya do right? I'm drowning my troubles in music lol some old school jennifer paige.. It*s just a little crush!<3 =) ..Yeah so I think me and ashley might go out tonight, If I'm up for it. Last night was fun, me and amy went to the dance contest in the lounge, it was funny stuff. The winner was this kid brandon and this girl jenna, brandons in my one class. There were these 2 sisters who were gross and belonged in a strip club. The one was doing a split on the floor and the other one was standing in front of her dancing while her face was like by her thingy! haha..no good way of putting that.. I'm glad the sluts didn't win. So, yah I'm staying up here this weekend. I hope it*ll be fun with amy lauren and nicole. But I*m excited! I get to go home wed morning and I*ll prolly head back early monday morning. 5 days of doing nothing! yay I haven't seen smey in a while..hmm I hope he doesn't dick me over when I come in haha cough cough::smokeybonesafterdawnofthedead::cough cough..<33 u mike..=)..Ok, welll I*m gunna head out and probably watch golden girls because they*re awesome! jess<33 (1 Comment |Comment on this)